Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Migraine Mania, Opening to The New

I haven't had a migraine this excruciating for months. Not sure if something physiological is causing it or not, but it's so extreme, I'm trying to do anything to distract my mind from it.

This is actually doing it. Which is mildly entertaining, if not very irritating, considering the time. 

Today is the last day of 2014. Somehow, I did manage to make it to the last day. We shall see if I make it through the whole day. Laughing doesn't seem to help the migraine, mildly giggling/cackling, on the other hand, seems to ease it. Funny . . . Not so good. Silly . . . Works out. Okay.

If I do manage to make it through today, looking forward to a productive 2015, migraines aside, of course.  Rarely does pain drop me like this . . . But, I do tend to turn it into an opportunity.

Good times to all . . . Or at least learn something or go out and experience something new. Break out of the limited views of before. Take every person in your daily life as a teacher of yourself. Without others, it would be far more difficult to see our weaknesses and strengths.

The Sun is always shining. Day and Night. The same can be said of your potential. So, use it.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Moving Forward, Walking Mindfully

Today was a few more steps out of the PTSD haze. Over two and a half miles of walking is always a good overall refresher. The back and shoulders workout seemed to help realign the spine. However, it felt as if I had nearly pushed myself too much. Despite that, I embarked on an uphill cross country treadmill hike. In 30 minutes I trekked 2.25 miles before heading off on another trek across the town.

I've been mulling over a Ridding of Ignorance article about mindful walking for days. This has actually been what has helped bring me out of the PTSD haze, I think. With each step on all of my walks this week, I pondered the topic from many perspectives. I attempted to consider how to apply this to everyday life and how to express to those I know in my life.

I see people struggle to connect the experience and wisdom of the words of Dr. Wayne Dyer and Thich Nhat Hanh but definitely connecting the words within religious texts to creating outcomes seems particularly difficult for most.

Ultimately, it is up to someone to take the leap and apply what is read and learned in every breath and every step. No one else can do that.

In writing just this summary of making progress out of my PTSD haze, I completely lost it upon being interrupted, then being flung once again into a constantly changing system that I'm supposed to somehow manage. Then, I come back to finish this 'progress report' only to delete half of it accidentally. To lose it like that shows the extraordinary progress yet to make.

How fortunate to have so much work left to accomplish!

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

9 December 2014

I walked to and from the gym, which is a little over two miles total, went through my chest exercises and then did a 30-minute 2.34 mile cross country gradient hike. It did feel so important to make that happen today, as the last couple of days have been so bloody awful with interpersonal relations.

I don't know what is worse, engaging with people that simply cannot or wasting mental and emotional energy debating with myself on better ways to try.

It has become painfully clear that I simply cannot reason with certain people. No matter how important I think these people are to me, to continue to waste valuable time and energy that should and could be devoted to other pursuits is utterly selfish.

I must do better.